As I tidy up lose ends before making my move to Colorado, I have an overwhelming feeling of excitement.. but at the same time can’t help but think about how much I truly dislike change. Change is uncomfortable. Change can be scary because there are plenty of unknowns. Whether you’re starting a new job, moving to a new city, or selling your childhood home (all things I’ve been processing/experiencing the past few weeks) there can be a lot of uneasy feelings that come with that. I’ve always been somebody who has liked being in a routine, mostly because then I know what to expect out of whatever it is I’m doing or going through.
I’m currently in a season of transition and change and although I embrace the personal growth that comes along with it, it truthfully makes me more agitated and increases my anxiety. I’ve always been the type of person who likes to be in control of my life choices and pretty much everything around me… so when something feels out of my control – such as change for instance – I don’t usually handle it well. I like to know details, alllllll the details. When there are things in my life that are up in the air or unsure, I panic. Does anybody else get this way? I sometimes feel so silly for the way I react towards change, but I know it’s probably just because I have a hard time adjusting to new things.
In this current season of life I am in, I am starting a new job and moving across the country to a city that is unfamiliar to me and where I won’t know anybody (well, except my boyfriend). At the same time, my mom has sold the childhood home I grew up in that holds many memories that are dear to my heart. The fact that these two huge life changes are happening simultaneously has really been tough, but in the process it is teaching me how to adapt to change with an open mind and a perspective that change is good – that it doesn’t have to be a bad thing.
During this current season of change and transition in my life, I can’t help but reflect on all the times I have been put out of my comfort zone, which ultimately led me to more personal growth, grit, and positive life perspectives. In the moment it can be scary – because there are so many unknowns – but in the end it pushes you to face things that you may not have dealt with otherwise. If you never do things that are scary and uncomfortable to you, you will never grow into the person you were meant to become.
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